vibrato

Most people who know me think of me as a pretty ballsy person. But the fact of the matter is I'm really a chicken-shit that hides it well! I do force myself to face challenges and there's very little I won't do if dared, but the truth is that the unknown causes a great deal of anxiety for me, which pobably explains my extreme organizational tendencies and my self-imposed nickname 'Preparation H'! I suppose in some ways that I am ballsy because I don't let my anxiety completely paralyze me and I push through the stuff that frightens me. This past week, I had to take a solo road trip for work that required me driving a government vehicle to 10 military health clinics throughout Germany, many of which I had never visited. Going to numerous posts that were unknown to me caused a great deal of stress, but I had to push through it. And now I feel great! Some of the experiences were not very enjoyable, especially the post split into two. Naturally, I entered the incorrect part of post first and had to navigate a maze of construction to exit it and enter the correct portion. Once in the correct section, I drove round and round in another mess of construction before finally discovering my destination! On the flip side, I'm tempted to write a bit of a love letter to the autobahn! What a great driving experience! And I definitely am grateful for my trusty Navigon! The GPS has given me a freedom in Germany that I wouldn't have been likely to find if confined to maps and printouts of computer directions, especially while here on my own. All in all, I'm happy to have come through this experience feeling much more secure and accomplished. And I'm proud to have again set my chickenshitness aside to conquer my fears!