As much as I've been griping lately, it's another day closer to Jerry coming home, something I remind myself every day. And soon it will be just one more day until I see him. While I'm loaded with the frustrations of this past year, I am also full of excitement and hope for his return, even if sometimes I seem too caught up in the misery of now to focus on potential of the future. The past couple of entries have been absolutely true and honest, but they don't present the whole picture. And honestly, it's this roller coaster of ups and downs that adds to the frustrations of deployment. I do get bogged down by emotion when things aren't going well between us and the distance makes it nearly impossible to have any sort of real resolution. But I also spend a good deal of time thinking about how much I admire what Jerry's going through and feel proud that we're going to make it through this very difficult time together. And I truly believe that making it through this will make us stronger....I just need to hang in there and do a better job at distancing myself and not having such extreme reactions to things.
So yes, it's another day closer and it's a new day with a fresh perspective and an improved attitude!
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