I'm not going to lie. Most of the time I hate the way I look. When I was on my way to losing over 100 pounds, that wasn't the case. Every day, I looked at the mirror and saw a smaller me and it felt good. But now that some of the weight has been gained back, those same numbers on the scale that made me feel good on the way down when I looked at myself now make me feel disgusting and see myself only as fat. Except after I work out. Beer goggles may make people seem more attractive, but nothing makes me like the way I look better than a hard workout and a sheen of sweat! No matter what my size, when I step off the elliptical machine, panting and dripping, I can't help but smile at my reflection. Watching this same body then go through a routine of muscle-building exercises with free weights makes me feel even better. It's amazing how much my image perception is influenced by my feeling of accomplishment, the pride in a great workout, the knowledge that I'm making my body stronger and fitter. My brain knows that really, my body hasn't changed that drastically in less than an hour. But my eyes see a Heather that they like and appreciate. Which is a pretty powerful motivater!
On a completey different topic, check out my boys being cute again!
Hey jerry and heather,
ReplyDeleteSo glad elizabeth fixed my new laptop so i can send u comments. tom elanor i going to epic theater to see the new movie hancock, the new will smith movie. get up the exc i sometimes walking nd every day.
love barbara
hey its mom agin,
ReplyDeleteelizabeth house will be delivered tuesday.
i know they will be glad blocks are laid so all we need is the house.
They had hoped out their apt by july 1, but everthing pushed back.
Next tuesday the magic day.